I guess today I was reminded what real courage can be. Real courage, when it does not involve sacrificing life, blowing up bodies, embracing the blade of a sword, firing a gun or raising a fist.
I guess real courage can be the same as staying behind and embracing that unfortunate life you have while letting everyone else move on to the next level. And you just watch them pass you as they get successful in their life. You do that because you want them to go first. You want them to be happy.
Real courage can be by keeping your mouth shut while everyone mocks you and say whatever they can to hurt you. You just sit there as you absorb every word against you when, really, you haven’t done anything wrong. They were all just looking for someone to blame and you let them by not screaming back at their rants. People have such annoying anger management issues and they just say or do whatever they can to release that anger. But you understood all that, that’s why you let them because you wouldn’t want chaos.
And Real Courage can be about still caring for your enemies and loving them as equals. No matter how much damage they’ve put on you. No matter how much they’ve took advantage of everything. You still care about what may happen to them when you can’t even think about your current problems.
Today I saw real courage not being associated with victory and pride. And its a depressing kind of courage because the person who has this is not given credit by anybody. We all just think they’re too weak to fight back when in fact they’re really not. They’ve endured all those painful things in a way we wouldn’t dare to. They’ve kept themselves from speaking up not because they’re being humble but because they don’t want any noise and they don’t want to extend the mess they’re in.
And they’re my heroes. and one of them is my father.
“Courage is not a man with a gun in his hand. It’s knowing you’re licked before you begin but you begin anyway and you see it through no matter what. You rarely win, but sometimes you do” —To Kill A Mockingbird